I LOATHE planning my wedding.
I'm literally the worst bride in the world because I find it tedious, annoying, expensive, ridiculous and stupid. The closer the day gets (less than 2 months now) the more grumpy I get about the whole thing.
I never wanted a big wedding. When we got engaged I said that I wanted to fly to an island somewhere and get married on the beach... Just me & PB and maybe a handful of friends and family. Or, if not that, to have a small wedding and then a big brunch so my Nannie could be there. PB shot that down immediately. Then I got an earful from my mother about how I'm an only child and thus her only chance of having a wedding.
Fine.
Real wedding it is.
So for a few weeks I got excited. I loved getting my dress. I loved the tasting for the menu... but to be honest I've hated every other aspect of this wedding. There is so much pressure these days to have large, elaborate fancy weddings. I think the whole thing is ridiculous. I'm trying to create a wedding that I'll love, that will be fun, that people will enjoy but that doesn't break the bank. But therein lies the problem... I am breaking the bank. I'm breaking PB's bank. I'm breaking my bank. And I'm not even having a fancy wedding. And why? For one stupid day and one dumb party that doesn't even matter that much to me. I would rather have taken all the money that we're spending to remodel our kitchen and to pay off some of my law school loans.
I might be the world's grumpiest bride. March 14th can't come soon enough. At this point I don't care what the flowers look like, if the lighting is nice, what jewelry my bridesmaids wear, or what music the DJ plays. I just spent like 20 minutes looking at rental chairs. CHAIRS. Finally I had to tell myself, in 20 years is it going to matter what chairs people sat on? For me the answer is a resounding NO.
I just want to marry PB and board our plane to Hawaii for a week of relaxed, marital bliss. Also long as my dress fits, the pictures are pretty and the food is good, I'll be happy.
I just have to keep reminding myself that it is about me and PB.
Nothing else really matters.
Am I the only grumpy bride out there?
Did anyone else detest the whole wedding thing?
(PS- I have a feeling I might have done a version of this post before. My apologies for any and all repetition.)
* DISCLAIMER: People keep posting annoying comments about my mother and about the "MESS" I've gotten myself in. The point of this blog post was that I generally dislike the entire wedding planning process. I have full control over every decision and my mother isn't taking over, which is what everyone seems to think I meant by this. I am not in any sort of "mess," I just don't like it and frankly don't care much about it. Stop reading so much into it people! *
* DISCLAIMER: People keep posting annoying comments about my mother and about the "MESS" I've gotten myself in. The point of this blog post was that I generally dislike the entire wedding planning process. I have full control over every decision and my mother isn't taking over, which is what everyone seems to think I meant by this. I am not in any sort of "mess," I just don't like it and frankly don't care much about it. Stop reading so much into it people! *
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